Mid crowd

I have fear of trying stuff and I plan my moves carefully to prevent the fear. One of it is running outside. Yup, simple. Running outside. I like to be in control of my environment. In the gym I control my speed, my distance, time etc. Outside? Can't really control much.

I am participating in a 6k run this Sunday. I did it at the gym yesterday but can I do it outside? I am careful so I asked Miza to join me. In preparation :

1. I downloaded Cardio Trainer to know what is the distance.
2. Pack my pouch with Good Morning towel.
3. Insert my ipod with armband into my pouch. Shit my battery is going kong. It's ok it will last. After all it's only about 1 hr right?
4. Water water water.
5. My 'I love Melaka' t shirt from my recent trip. Cheesy right haha
6. Polar HRM

The first 1.5 round was OK. After that ermm I switched from listening to music to Couch to 5k podcast. I think my heartbeat is not synchronizing with my rock songs and I need to walk in between because I'm tired. I didn't want to get to ambitious so I just played Week 3. The run was not so hard. Should have done Week 4 instead. Although in reality, I should be running 5k non stop. Oh well..

Running outside reminds me of the time when I was the last 3 during the 1.5km run. Either that or the last 2. Whenever my PE teacher announce to us, OK hari ni kita lari 1.5km. I knew I was going to be the last few. I told myself not to bother trying because of this and I make sure that I am fit enough until I try. I want to be in the mid crowd at least.

So today I tried. Still, I didn't go my best because I was adjusting to the pathway and road surface. But the important thing is I tried after few years of gym training and I AM in the mid crowd.

Marah

My ultimate motivation to lose weight is Anger. Believe it or not, anger keeps me going. I know it's exhausting to be angry but I can do it for years. Hampa mesti ingat 'Dia ni psycho'.

Aku ingat lagi the first time aku jumpa client aku di kilang. Aku excited because it's my first client meeting sejak aku balik dari Australia in 2008. Aku pakai lawa lawa, mekap lawa lawa then the moment aku being introduced to her, dia kata "Eh I ingat nak lose weight tapi bila I tengok you, tak jadilah!" TERSENTAP aku. Serious! Here I am looking my best and you successfully put me down with your comments bitch. Then aku berazam to 'show her'. So years passed by and when she saw me, dia tak komen pun aku dah kurus. Tapi aku tau dia nampak. Puas hati gak time tu. Now she sees me again and said, "Masreen dah gemok ka?". Kali ni aku tak tersentap sebab cara dia cakap tu tak sarcastic macam first time. Besides dia dah pernah tengok aku kurus.

Lagi satu cerita ialah masa aku kena operation buasir. That was in 2009 kot. Doctor tu cakap aku gemok tapi aku ok sebab masa tu memang aku tengah cuba diet/exercise untuk lose weight. Tapi yang aku tak tahan, bila aku habaq dia aku dah lose 2kg, dia buat muka macam "Ya lah tu. Boleh ka?" Time tu berat aku in my 90s. Geram dengan doctor yang tak supportive. Habaq kata kita gemok tapi tak support langsung. Toksah jadi doctor kalau tak mau encourage orang.

Hari ni ada orang kat gym cakap "Mas, you dah gain weight laaa. You dah gemoook" Minah ni memang suka  attention dari orang sekeliling. Pastu cakap kuat-kuat "Dah 3 minggu you tak datang" Walhal dia tau napa aku tak pi gym, aku sakit, kereta aku rosak, outstation dan aku kerja weh. Bukan cam hang desperate housewife. Dia dok berlari sebelah aku tadi. Aku pikiq, OK biatch mari kita tengok sapa lari kuat/lama lagi. Dia lari pun pegang handle tepi okehhh. Aku bantai lari sejam tadi. Dia ushar ja speed/time kat treadmill aku. Ha baru hang tauuuuu.....walaupun aku demok, aku banyak stamina daripada hang la pompuan. Bodo soi.

So kesimpulannya, lagi orang kutuk aku lagi kuat aku exercise. Kalau orang asyik cakap "Awak cantik, awak tinggi" aku makin naik lemak.

Kena tercabar baru jalan balik benda yang ketinggalan.

Temporary resident

Aku Temporary Resident di Pulau Alasan. Banyak ja alasan nak pi gym. Last Sun pi burn 755 calories. Sepatutnya buat PT dengan Patrick tapi Patrick senak perut, tak mai.  Fuh bangga dengan diri aku. Lepas tu tak pi dah.

Konon berehat 1 hari. Pastu hari ini, Patrick kensel aku punya PT. Aku pun lagi la malas. Lagipun aku salah tidur, dah 2 malam tak leh toleh kiri kanan. Nak dongak pun tak leh. Pagi tadi aku pi physio. Dr kata salah urat. Yep..

Aku MUST go to the gym tomorrow because Fri, Sat and Sun dah pi outstation. Jadi pari-pari/dayang di majlis bertandang close friend aku di Melaka. Kira ikut rombongan kawin la ni.

Minggu depan visa temporary resident aku di Pulau Alasan akan tamat. Then aku akan cop visa gym pulak sebab next weekend kena Merentas Desa 6km.

Aku mampu? Mestila mampooo...

Opps...ada lagi alasan pasaipa tak pi gym..Keta aku rosak. Enjin berkarat dsb. Bila start ja, tersengguk sengguk macam tak cukup nafas. Dah hantar pi mekanik, tak dapat detect. Pi keja tumpang orang. Balik keja pun tumpang orang. Tadi jadi semula sengguk sengguk tu. Haritu mampus tengah jalan. Lani dok pikiq nak ambik kereta baru, berkenan Prius latest tapi bajet takat Vios. Jadi la kan. Kalau nak ambik jugak Prius baru tu maybe kena jual mak bapak. Mak aku cakap, tak laku kot hahaha.

Sabaq ja la ma...

Another fitness challenge

Ok I must admit I haven't been at my top form. I used to be able to jog 5km non stop. I used to be able to walk/jog on the treadmill for 60mins no matter how boring it gets or how tired I was. All these things bug me. All the 'I used to'. I used to weigh 70kg but now...

I have to do something. I have to FORCE myself to take charge of my body, my mind, my spirit.

Last year I joined the Ipoh Starwalk and received a medal for 12th place. This year I'm moving into a running competition. I know I'm slow in adjusting. The thing is you have to be ready. You have to be prepared. I'm not someone who jumps into things suka hati. I need a plan.

I went to the Jabatan Belia dan Sukan and registered myself for

It's a 6km run. It will be a good practice for my 10km Penang Bridge Run.

Ok now I need to practice. My speed is so slow and so far I can only jog up to 20mins non stop. I can walk pretty fast though hehe. I'm going to start pushing myself to do 30mins jog and walk/jog until I complete the 6km run AND must add incline. I hate incline. I have about 2 more weeks minus some days that I'm going outstation.

I have a really good friend who is running with me PFS6450 so that would help a lot.

Wish me luck.

Crossing one more NY Fitness Resolution for Feb 2012

One of my New Year Fitness Resolution is to lose 4kg by Feb 2012. Aku dah exercise dan kontrol makan although not as strict as I used to be lah.

Dalam demam demam ni pun, aku still kontrol makan.

Since last I weigh myself, dah turun another 1.1kg. Alhamdulillah.

Making the loss since New Year 5.1kg. I have exceeded my goal.

Itu pun belum akhir bulan lagi.

Turbo Fire

Baru baru ni aku habis donlod semua program. Bukan takat 12 weeks program, rupanya dia mai sampai 5 days inferno dan 20 weeks program sekali. Baru puas ati aku.

Dulu aku ada beli dari 1 mamat ni beberapa CD tapi CD dah ngok ngek, tersekat-sekat. Thats why aku decide untuk donlod ja.

Salah satu Fitness Resolution aku ialah untuk add Turbo Fire dalam my daily routine. Last weekend aku dah start. Pagi aku pi gym. Petang aku Turbo Fire. Hari ni aku cuti. Alasan :

1. Tak sihat. Selesema tak habih habih. Habis ubat pun tak baik. Semalam tak bleh tidoq.
2. Saja take 1 day off from gym dan memang dalam schedule Turbo Fire hari ni rileks day.

Cuma lani nak kena pi beli kat Fitness Concept tube toning band dan resistance band untuk toning dan Stretch 40 class.

Perasaan aku lepas buat Turbo Fire. Sangat fun ok. Rasa macam dok dalam kelas. First class tu aku buat Fire 30. 20 minit dah mengah. Chalean memang laju tapi aku buat selaju mana aku leh follow. Ada gak part yang aku konpius. Depa ke kiri, aku ke kanan. Kita buat tu ikut music. Music pulak lively tapi bukan lagu Rihanna la. Itu tak kisah sangat. Kelmarin plak aku buat kelas HIIT 20. Serious best. Polar HRM aku ada one point to 99-105%. Logik ka? Ntah la.

Tapi paling aku suka part stretching. Hilang sakit sakit badan. Dia ajar stretching rotator cuff. Oh I so need it.

So sesiapa yang dok cari workout nak buat kat rumah yang cardio based, boleh consider Turbo Fire. Dia tak segila Insanity (habih sakit lutut aku). Turbo Fire is way more FUN.

How to combat cravings

Other than willpower, apalagi cara untuk control cravings. I read about this technique years ago tapi dah terlupa. Practice it once dan memang berkesan. Tetiba dok google sana sini ternampak this thing balik. This technique is called EFT. Dulu I got it from Paul McKenna. You can try it.

The Tapping Technique:

1. I want you to get the biggest desire for a food that you can right now. If you don’t have a big enough craving, put this technique to one side and come back to it when you’re really feeling it.
2. Focus on this craving for a moment, and when you’ve thought of that I’d like you to rate your desire for a food on a scale of 1-10, with 1 being the lowest and 10 the highest. This is important, because in a moment we want to know how much you’ve reduced it.
3. On a scale of 1-10, how strong is your craving? Remember, if you’re not really craving a bite (i.e. your craving is not at least a 7), come back to this technique later.
4. Now take two fingers of either hand and tap about 10 times under your collarbone while you continue to think about eating.
5. Now tap under your eye ten times.
6. Now tap under your collarbone again.
7. Place your other hand in front of you and tap on the back of it between your ring finger and your little finger. Continue to think about your desire for food as you do this and each of the steps which follow:
   • Close your eyes and open them.
   • Keep your head still, keep tapping and look down to the right then down to the left.
   • Keep tapping and rotate your eyes round 360 degrees clockwise, and now 360 degrees counterclockwise.
   • Remember to keep thinking about the food you were craving as you do this!
   • Now hum the first few lines of "Happy Birthday" out loud.
   • Count out loud from 1 to 5.
   • Once again hum the first few lines of ‘Happy Birthday’ out loud.

8. Stop and check – on a scale from 1 to 10, what number is your craving at now? If it hasn’t completely gone yet, just repeat this sequence again until it does.

The video is here - http://www.mckenna.com/Default.aspx?pid=49 tapi kena login baru boleh tengok.

Some people mungkin ingat benda ni silly sebab bila kita buat ni kita macam terlupa kejap kat craving tu. Kalau kat public place, memang orang akan ingat kita sewel kalau buat ni. Kena cari tempat tersembunyi hehe.  Tapi I think dia press accupunture points kat badan masa tapping. Tak tau la. You all can try and let me know berkesan ka tak.